Thursday, August 10, 2006

This has been the summer of no blog or maybe I should just call it the summer I moved. It has been one week since the truck left everything in cardboard piles in the new old/house…one week and there are barely dents. The summer I took chances, was messy, became a foundation—lived well. Deliberately well.

The summer I took too long.

The act of deliberate living is no easy act to perform at 38. Oh and then I turned 39—still not an easy act. Fire eating at 37 was a walk in the park;)

A summer of no writing and yet the summer where the ONE THING I sent in, landed me in Best New Poets. It is impossible sometimes to write and live---maybe it is not fair or just but there are times when living is too much to write about. I never thought I’d be there but I have and I’ve survived.

It has been the summer of this which everybody waits to hear/read about, to see if it floats or sinks, some are cheering one way or another and maybe b/c of that I haven’t recorded any of it. Maybe b/c the most private thing we can do is love.

Here is the truth: we are traveling. We are happy and sometimes we are not. The last year has taught me you can always look in at something, someone and believe you understand yet in fact, you know nothing. With all the things I write about, imagine, days I live, I will never know what it is like to be you—in your skin.

What a wonderful, horrible thing.

It is the summer I learned to judge less.

5 comments:

LitByFire said...

I wait to hear, I cheer you on, and should you ever come here, singular or plural, or plural-plural, I will cook a feast!

Suzanne said...

Is it you? Is it really you? I've missed you. xo

LKD said...

I was going to say Happy Birthday!

Or, Happy New/Old House!

Or, Happy New Love/Life!

Instead, I think I'll just say:

Happy Happy!

Good to see you here, friend.

Ali Davis said...

Welcome back. I cheer you on. Me too.

Erin B. said...

Respectable. Living deliberately is the best way to do it, even if.